Am I Boring?

I want to write something that people want to read. I feel like I ramble. Nothing interesting is going on in my life, I am a student who works full time at a restaurant. I'm happy with my life, I just don't know if I can write about it in a way that will keep others interested. I enjoy writing, even if no one reads what I write. BUT, ideally, I want to ramble and vent about day to day things and have people checking my blog every day to see what I have to say next. Therapy for me, entertainment for others. I guess for now all I can do is continue writing and see what happens. Maybe my writing isn't developed enough right now. Maybe if I continue writing for me, and reading it back, I will learn what I need to change to make this more appealing for someone else. Feedback is good too, especially negative! How else am I supposed to learn? So if you are reading this write now, please fill me in. Let me know if you enjoy this or not. Only friends and family know about this blog right now anyways, so you should feel comfortable talking to me about it! Until then I will continue on... rambling.

Ever since I started keeping a journal in the 3rd grade I've enjoyed writing. Before I even knew what the words on the pages of a book meant, I enjoyed reading. Somewhere between then and now I decided I wanted to write a book. When I was younger this didn't seem like such a big deal. I had so many stories and fantasies running through my head, all I had to do was get them on paper. I clearly didn't understand what goes into writing a book. But I think I had what it starts with. I had inspiration, creativity. The will to create a whole world out of words. Which is why the thought is still there. I refuse to believe that I lost that. I refuse to look at those desires and say that was me as a child with an imagination. I still have imagination. I still look at my world as possibilities, daydreaming about what could happen. I have a lot to learn, my high school education is not enough to get me through a book. But it is still a thought, and I am deciding to entertain it. I want to keep that thought alive. As a child I had the ideas, the confidence. Now I am realistic, I have an idea of how hard it will really be. So now I want to learn how to be a successful writer, and also remember what it was like to let my imagination run wild.

Mythology

(Written 8/31 in class)
"I really like mythology. That is really one of the only things I remember learning in 6th grade. I was Artemis for a project. All of the girls wanted to be Aphrodite, but I thought Artemis was way more appealing. Badass, if you will. She was a hunter, a goddess of the moon. Armed with a bow and arrow. I loved all of the stories, I think that's why I enjoyed the subject. It's taught in history, but it's all fictional. It's like learning about a sci-fi book in school. Not much I could do with all of that knowledge though. Instead I need to learn about productivity, early world history, the scientific method. Boring stuff. Why can't I read mythology, take pottery classes, writing classes, and yoga in school and make a living from those skills? I'll write sci-fi books while staying at home and doing yoga and pottery when my brain needs a break. But no, these aren't things the average person considers normal. An education means you learn economics, algebra, how to write a research paper. That's what will make me intelligent, the classes in my business major. So, I will carry on. I need to learn something that will make getting a job easier. Making money so I can provide for myself and my family if I need to. But I will still daydream about mythology while my econ teacher rambles on about GDP...

I want to travel. I don't want Atlanta to be my home forever. I can make a home wherever I go, and I want to go. It looks like next summer I will have a chance to actually follow through. Depends on many things. Money, school, having the "balls" to leave my family and friends behind. Moving with my boyfriend, making that decision to do something so life changing with him at my side. I have to let myself trust him. I do trust him, but moving across the country with him is a big step. I'm confident I could make it without him once I make friends and establish myself there, but I don't want to go anticipating that things won't work out with him. Is that being realistic or pessimistic? Is planning for the worst setting myself up for failure?"

Yeah all of this was written in econ. He was lecturing on productivity, the first econ concept that has been easy this semester. To touch on the moving thing, Tom wants to move out west. He wants a career with food, and he is pretty set on going west for his next step up. I would LOVE to move out there. I'm young, this is the perfect time to live in a different city away from my family. When I have a family of my own I would love to be close to my parents, and I love Atlanta, I would definitely come back. But right now I have nothing keeping me from packing my bags. I told someone my main concern was school, and his reply was "school is everywhere." Which is very true. So really the only thing is money, which I can make work. Of course moving across the country is scary, let alone doing it with Tom. But when I think about it, there is no one else I would rather travel with. Next summer isn't very far away, planning needs to start now. I want to say, I don't know what things will be like 9 months from now, but really if I'm thinking about doing something like this, I need to start preparing for it.Well that is definitely the most personal I've ever been in this blog. I guess I can handle publishing this. I needed to write this to make this whole thing more concrete. I can't keep looking at it as a dream. It's just moving, no big deal :)