Four Years Ago

I haven't blogged in a month. Oops. That was a fast month though, it doesn't feel like it was that long ago. Which is great because I want this summer to continue to fly by so I can see Tom. One month and four days to go.

I'm writing because I was about to make a facebook status about how fast life changes, but that is hard to summarize in a "status update" or "tweet." I came across some old pictures of old friends on facebook, and it made me feel... weird. Because four years ago I was hanging out with a group of people I called my best friends, and I don't talk to some of them anymore. I was spending the majority of my free time with these people, and when I think about those times it feels like it was yesterday. But it wasn't. The summer after high school graduation ended four years ago. Don't get me wrong, so much has happened since then that it feels like worlds away, but looking through these pictures and reliving those moments in my mind remind me that those relationships were real. They were my life then, and it's so strange to compare that time to the present. I am starting to realize that this is how it will always be. Even though a relationship is real, and strong, and happy, doesn't mean it will always be there.

And that's okay. Because I remember them fondly and continue on. It makes me realize how important the lasting relationships are. I'm skyping with the girl who I thought was a stuck up dancer in honors World Lit because even though she lives hours away she is still my best friend. Always picking up where we left off with the cheerleader who is too busy to call sometimes. Reading to the daughter of the girl who trained me as a hostess at a steakhouse. Making fun of my mother's laugh at family dinner and making her cry from the laughter every time. Calling my oldest friend because I look down at the tattoo on my wrist and remember why I got it. These relationships have changed and evolved, but they are still there. And I will hold on to them with everything I've got. Tom and I are moving across the country, but I will carry these people in my heart. And thank God for Skype :)

I feel better now after getting that off my mind and into writing. Those of you who are my closest friends, I love you and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. Thank you for reading this, and thank you for caring.